regaining ownership

this past year has been a bit dizzying for me. what with starting from square one (again) at a new school, and commuting and adjusting to living back at home, i've experienced quite a few changes.

my mom recently asked me if i missed fashion. to her surprise, as well as mine, the answer was no. it was strange to realize that although i love fashion, i had always known that i would not be in the heart of fashion for the rest of my life. i feel so much relief after being able to let go of preset goals and accept that my life was going to change - and for the better. i know now that fashion will be a part of my life if i truly want it to be. but i also know that my life is my own. i can live wherever and do whatever, whenever i want to. it's the most liberating realization. and even though it's 3am and i'm up doing homework, i have regained ownership of my life.

"for faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see." hebrews 11:1